Showing posts with label Big Chop. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Big Chop. Show all posts

Friday, October 30, 2009

My Big Chop


My daughter Stacy was born in July 2006. I retouched my new growth three months after her birth. Shortly after, my hair began to shed. I basically would reach up and run my fingers through it and clumps would come out. So much to the point that I began to hide my hair loss from my husband. Out of frustration, I decided to do the BC. In December 2006, I had chopped my hair off.

I am originally from Los Angeles where most of the African American women wear their hair straight by press, weave, wig or perm. Now I had my natural hair. Which was strange and odd for me. I have to admit that I felt naked and ashamed. At first, I did not want to leave the house. I felt as if all that I was resided in my having straight and long hair. It was my covering and protection from what others thought of me. I had to get over all of these emotions and start to learn about true beauty which comes from the inside, not the outside. And then I began to feel proud and beautiful. I heard compliments like exotic and chic...It was awesome.

I realized with short hair I had to keep my eyebrows done and earrings on otherwise I might look like a boy and I knew that wasn't appropriate. It's a journey...one that I didn't realize was actually starting for me.